Friday, March 23, 2018

Cheesecake and trash talk

Yesterday was my last day at Big Boy Websites.
There were a lot of jokes and a lot of back talking.
There were some very very funny in jokes.
There was a lot of work done too, tying up all the loose ends.

We ate a shared lunch of Keri's curry and crusty bread that Sarah brought.
It was delicious.  I made a cheese cake and that was delicious too.

There were a few liberties taken.
This meant that everyone got to drink at 3pm because
what are you going to do? fire me??!!

It was actually fun.

We have worked super hard as a team at Big Boy Websites,
I came on board when Alex had graduated from working in his wardrobe
(true story! I called it Narnia)
to working at the Exchange.

I'm really really proud of what we achieved and I still believe
that the Big Boy Websites offer to business owners is the best around.

(The Exchange is still my favourite place in Christchurch.)

We have had a lot of successes and some spectacular failures.
We have laughed, we have cried, and occasionally
we have raged.

There's been a lot of swearing.
The office has been changed around 5673422 times
and every single week Alex changes the process.

I don't know how we all survived!!

I loved the fact there was so much trash talk yesterday.
It showed they cared. If they has all been quiet and nicey nicey
then I would have been worried. 
But they treated me like they always do, like family. It was great.

I have never felt more loved!

Monday, March 12, 2018

A perfect storm of change....

I knew when I woke up on 1 January that I needed to change things in my life. The first thing to tackle was my health and fitness. It turns out that being healthy is not just about eating less rubbish and walking around the block more often. Sometimes it means tackling the big difficult problems and finding solutions for them. For me this means that I had to come to grips with the fact that I could not manage our big garden and house, working full time and commuting to Rolleston.

I have to admit that I just can't do it all and that I basically failed at my endeavour. So I put my house on the market (the feedback is I needed to clean it better - um yes, that's why I'm selling it) and I'm going to move right into town at the centre of things. It's going to be great even though most people would agree with me that shifting house is awful. We have found a town house that we like and hope to purchase but there are so many factors in the air, we can't hope too much.

And then this week I unexpectedly was made redundant from the company I have poured my heart and soul into for the last two and a half years. I guess I would never have made the jump myself, so the universe gave me a kick. I wasn't quite ready for that to be honest, but now that it's here I can see some opportunities in the space that has been created.

So right now we are right in the "pain" part of change. The part where there's lots of things to deal with and frankly not enough energy to do it. The part where lots of things are out of our control and we have to trust the process that it will all be ok. And I really believe that it will, we just have to get through this bit. 

Let's just say that diet and exercise are on the back burner, but reducing stress levels and therefore being healthier are definitely works in progress. I will keep you posted on how it's all going!!

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

It’s a good day when no one cries on the way to work...

Standards have lowered y’all. I can’t even explain how it is to just keep moving forward when it feels like I’m failing on all fronts.

I know at sometime in the future we will look back on this time and realise we got through it, but right now a lot of it sucks.

It doesn’t all suck. We are eating lots of veggies from our garden and the hens are laying well. The Resident Teen is learning to clean the house and making a good job of it. I’ve started two new quilts that will probably take all year.

Annie and I sorted all her clothes and tidied her room, it looks amazing. I’ve lost two kgs at weight watchers and gained some much better habits. I also got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes so that was a kick in the butt. 

But then there are mornings like yesterday when Annie burnt her arm, forgot her togs and her breakfast, and I had to explain to her teacher why I haven’t bought stationery yet. (The Resident Teen got her two hash browns at morning tea and the day was saved.) 

They say it takes a village to raise a child. I don’t know where the village is, but it definitely takes teamwork. In my house, we are all holding each other up to get through.

This too will pass. 
No one will cried today.

Monday, January 15, 2018

I was debating whether I would keep blogging this year....

(some negative feedback I got last year is still rolling around in my head)
but I figure if I can learn from the feedback then maybe it's ok
if I keep on writing here in this space.

I mean, nobody actually has to read it and I like writing it,
so that's ok I think.

So here I am in 2018, still blabbing on about stuff.
You can read it or you can not. I'm not offended either way. Deal?

I have high expectations for 2018. 
Let's face it, 2017 set the bar verrrrrry low
so things can just get better from here.

Anyway I've decided that 2018 is the year that I finally get fit and healthy.
I signed up for a year of Weight Watchers 
and I've actually been moving my body a bit.
I'm determined not to be Fat and 50, so I'm going to do this.

We added two kittens and two baby bunnies to our family over Christmas
and we spent the holidays watching them and having belly laughs 
at their antics.

Everyone needs a pet which makes you laugh.

I sewed a ridiculous amount over the holidays (especially when I was home alone)
and now my sewing table is clean and tidy and also my head is too.
I'm planning on another epic project hopefully ending in either an
exhibition or a book or both. But it is great to clear some space to think
about these things. I'll keep you posted if you are interested.
{insert crickets chirping}

In other news I've been loving working in our garden with Annie.
We've eaten lots of cucumbers and courgettes, lettuce and silverbeet.
That combined with the eggs from our chickens, means that we have eaten some
delicious home grown dinners this summer.

So here's to 2018. Starting with hope for good things.

Friday, December 22, 2017

With a lot of help from my friends {my Christmas miracle}

Right now I'm feeling thankful right down to the bottom of my bones.
On Thursday morning I stood in my kitchen
pondering the budget and the things left to do;
and I said to myself, I need a miracle.

But you know, miracles don't really happen to ordinary folks do they?
I shrugged and went off to meet my BNI leadership team for breakfast.

My BNI group meets every Thursday morning where we talk about our business
cheer each other on, pass referrals and have breakfast together.
I love my group and currently they have allowed me to be their president
(i didn't think they would say yes lol)

While we were having breakfast they gave me an envelope
with money and vouchers they had collected for me.
I cried. I could not believe it.
It was my Christmas Miracle.

It's a truly humbling thing to receive a gift that you absolutely cannot repay.

So this Christmas I am grateful to the person who gave me a Westfield Voucher.
It was the exact amount of what I spent at Kmart buying final gifts.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I'm grateful for a full tank of fuel. We can go camping this week.
I'm grateful for the grocery vouchers, they were almost exactly the amount I needed to buy the things we absolutely could not go with out (cat food, dog food, hen food etc)

One of the things on my to-do list yesterday was to pick up a ham
that i had ordered earlier in the year.
I debated whether I would or not because I couldn't really afford it
but i had ordered it, so I thought I better have some integrity.

When I went there, someone had paid for it.
I was speechless.

I'm grateful for a Christmas food parcel we received this week
the pantry look s much better.
I am also thankful for some other money we were gifted that filled the rest of the gaps.

I can promise that we have not wasted any of it but used it wisely.
It has been an amazing provision.
I can't believe it just happened for us when we really needed it.

Last Christmas I got a credit card and just put Christmas on that.
But that was a horrible idea and it was hard to pay all that back
actually it was impossible. I ended up putting it on my mortgage.
It was a hard lesson to learn and I cut up the credit card.

This Christmas I was determined to get through somehow.
I knew there would be a shortfall, but I thought I would just do what I could.
But thanks to the amazing provision I have received,
provision I never dreamed would turn up, we are having Christmas in our house.

I am more grateful than words can describe.
So much undeserved kindness.

It's a Christmas Miracle.
Merry Christmas.

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Embracing the Sparkle this Christmas

In the last week of November Annie was keen as mustard to get our tree up.
So we dragged out the tree and the decorations and set up the tree.
To be honest we ran out of steam after the tree was up
so we put the decorations in a basket and every time we walk past
we hang a couple of decorations up.

While she was doing that I googled saying about Christmas to put something
on our letter board and came across this saying:
Christmas is too sparkly, said no one ever.

I liked it. I thought it was an attitude that I could embrace.
Because Christmas can be hard work,
you are busy finishing work, making gifts,
attending end of school things etc etc.

But I thought, what if I just embrace it and enjoy the sparkle.

And so on the whole we have. We put out all the Christmas quilts
and I hung as much Christmas bunting as my house could stand.
We have decorated a bit and we have Christmas lilies making the house smell amazing.

We have said yes to things that we could do, 
and enjoyed those.
(We said no to some things too and that was ok)

It's a busy time of the year and we can't change that.
But we can take time to visit a friend for a drink and to admire their lights.
We can wear our prettiest dress and go and sing carols at school.
We can admire the decorations all around
and we can enjoy the excitement of the approaching holidays.

The advent calendar is still empty, but no one seems to mind,
it doesn't all have to be perfect.

The important thing is to enjoy the sparkly bits
and not stress about making it perfect.

After all a bit of glitter hides a lot of imperfections.

So have a sparkly Christmas folks,
and a restful holiday wherever you are.

Here's to 2018.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

We went camping and it was ok.

Remember how I wrote about reclaiming summer? Well a few months ago in the dead of winter, I was working one Saturday and decided there had to be more to life than work. I rang up and booked a camping site by the sea; and this weekend we went to stay. 

Every step felt like an achievement...
Convinced the Resident Teen to come with us {check}
Packed the car {check}
Drove to Kaikoura {check}
Set up the campsite {check}
Enjoyed each other’s company {check}
Took a nap {check}
Are camping food (nachos, macaroni cheese, pancakes, sausages) {check}
Did some stitching {check}
Lit a fire {check}
Watched the sunrise {check}
Fitted everything back in the car {check}
Made it hope safely {check} 

We did it all. We may have accidentally taken the tent without poles or fly and had to sleep in the gazebo. We may not have rated a single vegetable unless you count an onion. 

But we went away, we loved watching the sea do it’s thing and we enjoyed being with each other. 

There may have been some preliminary yelling by me, 
but on the whole even the Resident Teen seemed to enjoy himself. 

Funniest moment: feeding the seagulls the leftover two minute noodles
and Chrissy says (in a seagull voice) "ooh what's this? spicy worms!".
Still chuckling over that one.

So if we can save enough $$$ we plan to try again at Christmas. 
Next time we will take the dog lead, 
breadboard, sharp knife and the sunscreen, 
oh and a proper tent and a water container.
Oh and a tent. Ahem. 

We’re calling it #winningatlife